Sunday, December 6, 2009
No where else
I have been mourning my friend Maze a lot lately. It has been a very private, difficult thing.
Because none of my family ever knew him. They never got to meet him or hear him play his drum, or see the gentle beauty of his soul.
The other day I was driving to work listening to my field recordings from Mali. I have one, in particular, that is a recording of Sidy teaching Maze a song he wrote.
There I was, on a beautiful sunny day, listening to this sweet music, which brought me back, instantly, to the courtyard of our house in Mali, with Maze and his gorgeous new drum. I could not hold back the tears.
Maze died in late May, and by June I was working at an incredibly demanding job. And I didn't get to go to any kind of funeral or memorial event. And I didn't get to really talk about it with anyone. And even when I did, it really didn't help. Because there is no help for a loss like this. And really, no one wants to talk about someone else's grief, do they? This is a sadness that I carry alone.
So I write on this blog, which really no one reads. Because I just have to say that
I miss Maze Kouyate.
My life will never be the same for having met him. And it will never be the same for having lost him so suddenly and unexpectedly.
Tu me manques, mon cher.